Do You Hold A Grudge?

I know some of my readers are clueless about what's bugging me lately. As much as I want to divulge the current events of my life, I'd rather not because I might say something that I'll regret in the future. So there. To give a hint about the "matter" let's say it has something to do with losing my best friend and the same person I really value and care most. Anyway, I'm okay. Really, thanks for the concern and care.

Thanks to Pam for the comfort foods (peanut kisses, biscocho, chocolates and butterscotch - although these are for the kids, lol) and for just listening to my rants. Thanks Karen for the calls. Thanks Laise for the laughs. You're the only people who know what really happened to me. Thanks.

Anyway, I'm not holding a grudge even if I really want to. Maybe I'm too forgiving that's why some people abuse me. But the hell I care. When I retaliate, I retaliate hard.

You Sometimes Hold a Grudge

You aren't exactly vengeful, but you're not going to forget when someone wrongs you. And while you'll forgive the small things, you don't hand out too many second chances to people who really screw up.

Do You Hold a Grudge?

Iiyak Mo Yan (Cry It Out)

I was down in the dumps yesterday, I could not concentrate on my job so I kept on bugging my co-teacher to cheer me up. Madness. There was one point when I was calling my BFF because I was about to lose my mind. And well, everyone said only one thing and that is for me to cry it out.

I had a hard time crying for some reason that I could not explain myself. But last night, finally, I was able to belt it all out. The kids are asleep and I was about to sleep when buckets of tears fell. It was a good feeling. Better than what I felt the whole day. I cried. For ten minutes or so, I just bawled. And I still think that it was great.

I am okay now, I'm back on my knees. Ms. Goody Teacher is once again inspired to teach. I think I handled the dilemma with grace and poise. I am still bugging my co-teacher but not as often as yesterday. And I can now smile. I have to work on some things worthy of my time.

For my lurkers, click this sentence to know what happened to me yesterday.

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I noticed that I am getting quite a number of new "regulars" who read my blog. It's flattering really, and thanks. For the haters who read my misfortunes, may the good Lord bless you. For my relatives who visit, thanks. And whatever you read here, don't tell my mom. Hahaha. For my new found friends, old friends, old lurkers, thanks for the traffic and care. Hehe.

Now let's get 2009 rolling!